Lyrics

(Welcome to my world)
(Step in. Stay a bit.)
(Hahaha)

[Verse 1]
Oh my god
I think I blew my top again
Switched up moods
I think I pissed off all my friends again
Like where they went?
Still the same as Tendo was a kid
Guess I learned what bitter is
And held a little tight to it
Suffocated my opinions and my vindication
Went and found some solace in complacent living
If the home is vacant what's the point in taking it?
Let it sink in
Don’t let the statement miss

[Hook]
[AreWhy]
I sent my patience on vacation
No more waiting for the 'better is'
Maybe life ain't got a perfect fit
I sent my patience on vacation
No more waiting for the 'better is'
But I've been hearing ignorance is bliss

[Verse 2]
Somber summer somewhere slightly southern
And I ain't even soak up all the warmer weather
Cause someone stole the sun when sadness hit
Had some struggles
Stuck between at least a dozen quits
Like 'fuck a habit git'
But maybe that's a habit in itself
Picking battles turned to waging war on self
Place it on a placard
"Hey you did it kid"
Hope you know I'm proud of it
But lately pride ain't doing shit

[Hook]
[AreWhy]
I sent my patience on vacation
No more waiting for the 'better is'
Maybe life ain't got a perfect fit
I sent my patience on vacation
No more waiting for the 'better is'
But I've been hearing ignorance is bliss

[Verse 3]
Third term
Guess we've been blessed with afterbirth
Like finding worth in 'after earth'
What's the point in asking how?
Them words are cursed
Like get to work
Time to find a fatter cow
Clout can make a dude do many maybe anything
But I'll be damned if I go chasing tastes to see what all that fame can bring
Yeah you caught me man I'm panicking
When thirty's peaking corners
And these kid's sixteens is meaning more than verses

(Ayo)
(Aye aye aye aye)
(haha)
(Yuh yuh yuh)
(It's t-e-n-d-o)
(Let me fuck it up a bit)

[Verse 1]
I-n-d-e-p-e-n-d-e-n-t
Yeah I tried that solo thing
Couldn't swallow pills I didn’t know I'm supposed to take
I can be a little more dependent
Watch it
Trust me
Wouldn't send the bill if I knew I stowed away
Hide in boxes 'til it's just me
Eyes been looking crusty
From the lack of rest and good sleep
For peace I'm getting lusty
That luster lost its shine a while back
It ain't like last week
Then I got so caught up chasing all my goals 
I let 'em pass me
Looking at the past me
One I thought was everlasting
'Til I tried it on a fast beat
And it turned into my last need
Slacking on priorities
That lack that leads to purgatory
'Til I wrote out half my story
Came to terms with "hey, don’t worry"

(Oh, it's really just me then)
(Alright)

[Beat Switch Verse]
I've been
Starting to feel myself like I'm healing 'self'
Tragic
Never meant so much 'til I said it's enough
Has-been
With a ways to go 'fore its laid in stone
Zoning out 'til I'm in the zone
Working 'til the soul is bone
Patience
Please be patient doc
Know you’re on the clock
Wasted
I've been watching time
It's been on my mind
Chasing
Feet still stuck in place like molasses pace
With a masked up face
So the smile always stays

Reaching out for hands to help me get back on my feet
This soldier couldn't rest in peace
That PT add an S then D
Trauma bonding never held like shitty solder
Guess it's all just cannon fodder
Kinda glad I bothered father
Product of a bond that's loveless
Man I love this
Not above it
Still just treading water
Tried my best to be a man enough for someone's daughter
Then I lost her when I tossed my worth out
Value never noticed
So I told myself "don’t bother"
Now here we go it's:
Really now or never
Got a fever ain't the weather
Whether I can weather storms or not
Don’t mean I'm out forever
Don’t you count me motherfucker
I am more than just a number
I can interact a lot but that engagement wasn't coming
Trust it
Bombs go bursting
Was it worth it?
Of course I'd say "I'm fine"
Not okay ain't in the budget
Gassed up just enough to function
If we have to coast to coast on E 
That's fine
I guess there's always feet and walking
But them miles got me like "fuck it"

(Ayo)
(Let me spit a bit)

(Yuh yuh yuh)

(Let's go)

[Verse 1]
Act like I ain't antisocial
When any social function makes me lose all sense of functioning
Not too great with being punctual
Couple times I tucked and rolled
Made me be like "What the fuck it's for?"
Lamest story ever told
The blunt unrolled so I-
Tried to cope with marijuana smoke
Mental health been all a joke
Why I keep on going ghost
Running from myself the most
Instead of fixing things
Yeah I know
"Tendo too damn vulnerable"
"Grown ass man. Fuck you crying for?"
"We all got trauma dump it somewhere else my bruh"
But my grind been in the gutter
From the lack of funds or any fun
Tactful as a broken gun
Never been that tactical

Id and ego uncool
Tore apart the scripture that I thought I wrote and grown into
Picked apart like 'what's what'
Running with my tail tucked
Sick of saying "been fucked"
Sick of all this-
Man hush

Time to listen

[Verse 2]
To what the world's been telling me
Stop and get some therapy
Hop up off the pity me
And stop the putting blame on genes
Wake up, put on big boy jeans
If I'm really sick of me, then I should probably fix some things
Yuh
I need this, I need this
Get back to 'I fiend this'
Been hungry, so I feed it
Switch up
Give life a remix
Weep as I read it
Streets said he's bleeding in alleyways
He's creeping for a new hit
I can do this
Let me prove it
'Do ain't bullshit my dear
Them headlights is looking too lit
And I've been too nice
It's time to let rip
If paradise is twice the life 
Then give me two tix

(If paradise is twice as nice then I want all of it)
(If paradise is nice, yeah)

[Verse 3]
Hell been claimed me
But they ain't really pay me
So I apply for newer payment
'Til I'm madder than some rabies
Tired of crying like a baby over all this lame shit
At nights when I don't feel like more than  the 'okay' me
So it's lay me
Down or out
Either way it's-
'Go play' me
Approaching Go
Do not pass
And don't collect
That 200 on the dash
Hope that means that I am finally
Out pacing demons
Okay, I'm speeding
Towards the wall
And I'm just hoping
I can meet it
Fuck it ball
We can't redeem him
If gas depleted
Hit the mall
Get the bag
Then he's leaving out the back

[Outro]
Must be Halloween
Cause it's masking season always on repeat
Yuh
Must be Halloween
Cause it's masking season always on repeat